I found the second toothbrush in our bathroom on a Tuesday.
It was a cheap blue one, sitting right in the ceramic holder next to Simone’s.
We don’t HAVE guests in this apartment.
“It’s just for Dominic’s kid,” Simone said when I pointed at it. “They’re still unpacking next door and he lost his toiletries.”
I wanted to believe her. We’d been together four years, sharing this cramped place on 41st Street, saving for a house.
But then she started going over there every evening.
“Just helping him set up the kitchen,” she’d say, slipping her shoes on at 8:00 PM.
I tried to let it go. But that night, lying in bed, I kept staring at that blue toothbrush.
A week later, I saw them on the fire escape.
They were standing so close their shoulders touched. Dominic was laughing, and Simone had her hand on his arm.
My stomach dropped.
I couldn’t sleep. The next afternoon, I waited until I saw Simone’s car leave for her shift at the hospital.
I walked next door and knocked.
Dominic opened it, wearing a faded t-shirt. “Oh, hey, Marcus. Simone’s not here.”
“I know,” I said, my chest tight. “I came to talk to you.”
Before he could answer, a little boy, about four years old, ran into the hallway.
I went completely still.
The boy had Simone’s exact hazel eyes, her distinct pointed chin, and the identical small birthmark right below his left ear.
He looked more like Simone than anyone I had ever seen in my life.
My hands were shaking. I looked from the boy to Dominic.
“Who is he?” I whispered.
Dominic looked down, his face turning completely pale, and stepped back into the apartment.
“Marcus, please,” Dominic said, his voice cracking. “Simone swore she was going to tell you the truth today.”
Dominic’s Apartment Had Two Kinds of Boxes
The boy stood behind Dominic’s leg and watched me.
He had one sock on. The other foot was bare and gray at the heel, like he’d been walking around on the floor. In his hand was a red plastic dinosaur with one wheel missing.
Dominic rubbed both palms over his face.
“What’s his name?”
He didn’t answer.
The boy did.
“Eli.”
His voice was small but not shy.
I looked at Dominic. “Eli what?”
“Marcus, don’t do this in the hall.”
That made me laugh, but it came out wrong. Too loud. A woman downstairs opened her door, saw us, and closed it again.
“Don’t do what? Ask who the kid is?”
Eli pressed the dinosaur against his stomach.
Dominic crouched in front of him. “Go sit on the couch for me, buddy. Put the TV on. Channel six.”
The boy didn’t move.
“Please.”
Eli looked at me one more time, then shuffled into the apartment. I heard the television click on. Cartoon voices. Somebody singing about a farm.
Dominic left the door open and walked inside. I followed.
The apartment looked half moved-in. There were boxes marked KITCHEN stacked under the window, but dishes sat loose on the floor beside them. A mattress leaned against one wall. Two small sneakers were lined up beneath a chair.
The place smelled like cardboard and powdered laundry soap.
I saw another toothbrush on the counter. Blue, still in its package.
My mouth dried up.
“How old is he?”
“Four.”
“Is he yours?”
Dominic stared at the boxes.
“Is he yours?”
“His name is Eli.”
“That wasn’t the question.”
The cartoon got louder. A cow made a stupid noise. Eli laughed from the other room.
Dominic sat down on the arm of a chair. It groaned under him.
“Simone had him when she was twenty-one.”
I didn’t understand the sentence at first. It landed in pieces.
“Had who?”
“Eli.”
“Simone had a baby?”
“Yes.”
I kept looking at him, waiting for the punchline. Dominic had always been strange around Simone. Quiet. Too familiar. I had assumed they were old friends, maybe cousins. She’d said he was somebody from work.
Four years with a woman and you can still discover a whole child in the apartment next door.
“Where’s his mother?”
Dominic looked at me.
“You know where his mother is.”
I turned toward the television. Eli was sitting cross-legged on the rug, watching a purple bear bounce across the screen. He had Simone’s mouth too. Not just the eyes. The same lower lip that stuck out when she concentrated.
The blue toothbrush in our bathroom.
The evenings.
Her hand on Dominic’s arm.
“She told me she couldn’t have kids,” I said.
Dominic’s eyes dropped.
“When?”
“Before we moved in together. She said she’d had surgery. She said it was the reason she didn’t want to talk about children.”
“She said she couldn’t get pregnant.”
“She said she couldn’t have kids.”
“Don’t fix the wording.”
He flinched.
I hated that I noticed.
“Where is the father?”
Dominic picked at a piece of dried paint on his thumb.
“I am.”
The television sang. Eli clapped at something.
I stood there with my fists closed, pressing my nails into my palms.
Four years. Every birthday. Every Christmas. Every time I had asked if she wanted children, if we should start looking at bigger apartments, if the house we saved for should have a spare room.
She had looked right at me and said no.
Not now. Not ever.
And Dominic had a son with her.
The Story Changed Every Time He Told It
“Did she cheat on me with you?”
“No.”
“You’re going to have to do better than that.”
“She didn’t cheat.”
“Then when?”
“Before you.”
I almost hit him.
Not because of the answer. Because of how quickly he had it ready.
He stood up. “She was pregnant when you met her. She’d already given birth.”
“That makes no sense.”
“Eli was two months old when she left the hospital.”
I looked at the little boy.
He was pushing the broken dinosaur along the carpet now, making a grinding sound with his mouth. His hair was cut unevenly around his ears. Somebody had tried to do it at home.
“Where was he?”
“With me.”
“Why?”
Dominic’s jaw moved.
“Because Simone didn’t want him.”
I looked at him.
The room got very quiet except for the cartoon and that awful dinosaur noise.
“She gave him to me.”
“She abandoned her kid?”
“Don’t call it that.”
“What should I call it?”
Dominic looked at the rug. “She was twenty-one. She’d just lost her mother. She was working doubles at St. Vincent’s, sleeping in a room with three other girls. She had no money. No place. She said she couldn’t be a mother.”
“So you raised him.”
“His father wasn’t around. Simone’s mother was dead. Mine wouldn’t take him. I did.”
“You’re his father.”
“I signed the papers.”
There it was. The version of the truth that had been living next door while I brushed my teeth.
Eli got up and came into the room. He held the dinosaur toward me.
“Wheel broke.”
I looked at it.
“Yeah.”
Dominic took it from him. “We’ll get another one.”
“But this one.”
“I know.”
Eli looked at me again. “Are you Marcus?”
My throat tightened.
“Yeah.”
“Mommy says you’re nice.”
I turned to Dominic. “She calls herself Mommy?”
“She visits him.”
“How often?”
He didn’t answer.
“How often?”
“She started coming around again three months ago.”
Three months. The same time Simone had started looking at houses online. The same time she began putting money into an envelope in the kitchen drawer.
I had thought she was saving for us.
“She wanted him back,” Dominic said. “That’s why she rented the apartment.”
I stared at the boxes.
Dominic and Eli hadn’t moved next door because of a job. They had moved because Simone wanted her son close enough to pretend she had been there all along.
“Why didn’t she tell me?”
“She was going to.”
“Today.”
“She said today.”
“She says a lot of things.”
Dominic didn’t argue.
I took one step toward the door, then stopped. I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to be in that room either.
Eli had gone back to the television.
“Is he sick?”
Dominic looked up sharply.
“Why would you ask that?”
“Because you said she wanted him back. Because she was acting like this was some emergency. Because you’re looking at me like I’m about to break something.”
He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.
“Eli has a heart condition.”
I looked at the boy.
He was dancing now, badly, swinging the dinosaur over his head.
“How bad?”
“Bad enough that he needs surgery.”
“When?”
“Friday.”
The word sat between us.
I checked the time on my phone. 2:17 PM. Simone would be home around four-thirty. Her shift ended at three, but she always stayed late when she was worried about something.
I had never understood how many things she could worry about without telling me.
She Had a File in the Back of the Closet
I went home and waited.
I sat at the kitchen table with the blue toothbrush in front of me. I had taken it from the bathroom and laid it on a napkin, like it was evidence. Then I felt stupid and put it back in the holder.
At 4:52, Simone opened the door.
She had her hair tied up, her hospital badge still clipped to her shirt. She carried a paper bag from the deli on Ninth Avenue.
“I got you a turkey sandwich.”
I watched her take off her shoes.
She knew.
Not because Dominic had called her. Because she looked at the bathroom before she looked at me.
“Where were you?” she asked.
“Next door.”
The bag slipped in her hand.
For a second, neither of us spoke.
Then she put the food on the counter. “Did you see him?”
“Eli.”
She closed her eyes.
I had expected denial. Anger. Something loud that would give me a place to put my own anger.
Instead, she sat down.
“He wasn’t supposed to be there.”
“He’s four. Where was he supposed to be?”
“Marcus.”
“Don’t say my name like that.”
Her fingers started picking at the edge of the deli bag. Tiny pieces of brown paper fell onto the counter.
“Dominic told you.”
“He told me enough.”
“How much is enough?”
“That you had a baby. That you gave him to Dominic. That he’s having surgery Friday. That you’ve been going over there every night because you want to take him back.”
She looked at the floor.
“I didn’t give him away.”
“You signed papers.”
“I signed temporary guardianship papers.”
“Temporary for four years?”
“Things got complicated.”
I stood up so fast the chair hit the wall.
“Things got complicated? That’s what we’re calling it?”
She didn’t move.
“His mother died three weeks before he was born,” Simone said. “She was the only person I had. My father was already gone. I was twenty-one and pregnant and working nights. Dominic said he’d help until I got on my feet.”
“Then you didn’t get on your feet.”
“I tried.”
“Did you?”
She looked at me then.
There was a red mark on her cheek from the elastic of her mask. Her face was tired. I hated that I still wanted to touch it.
“I went to see him every week.”
“Behind my back.”
“I didn’t know how to tell you.”
“You had four years.”
“Every time I tried, you talked about a house.”
That made something in my chest twist.
“We were saving for a house.”
“With a room for a child.”
“For us.”
“For the three of us.”
She said it so quietly I nearly missed it.
I sat back down.
She went to the bedroom and returned with a gray folder. The corners were bent. She put it on the table but kept her hand on top.
“I was going to tell you after the surgery.”
“Why after?”
“Because if it went wrong, I didn’t want to bring you into it.”
“You didn’t want me to know your son existed.”
“That’s not fair.”
“No, it isn’t.”
She took her hand off the folder.
Inside were hospital records, court forms, a photograph of Eli as a newborn. He was red-faced and furious, wrapped in a yellow blanket. Simone sat beside him wearing a hospital gown, looking nineteen instead of twenty-one.
I picked up the photograph.
On the back, in black ink, she had written: Elias James Bell, 6:14 a.m.
There was another paper beneath it.
I knew the name before I read it.
My name.
Marcus Bell.
My hand went numb.
“What is this?”
Simone said nothing.
I looked at the line again. Father: Marcus Bell.
The room tipped. I grabbed the table.
“That’s not possible.”
“Yes, it is.”
“Dominic said he was the father.”
“Dominic raised him.”
“You told me you couldn’t have children.”
“I thought you knew.”
“Knew what?”
She swallowed. “We were together before you. We broke up for six months. I found out I was pregnant after you left.”
I couldn’t hear the refrigerator anymore. Just the blood in my ears.
“We broke up?”
“We were nineteen.”
“Simone, I met you when I was twenty-six.”
“I know.”
“You said we’d met at that hospital fundraiser.”
“We did.”
“You knew me before that?”
She nodded.
I pushed the photograph away.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because you were seeing somebody.”
“Who?”
“That woman from Queens. The one with the red hair.”
I remembered her. Dana. We dated for five months. It hadn’t mattered.
“I tried to call you.”
“You could’ve found me.”
“I did. You told me you didn’t want kids.”
I stared at her.
“I didn’t know you were pregnant.”
“You told me you didn’t want kids.”
“Not like that.”
Her mouth tightened.
“I was scared. I thought you’d say you didn’t want a baby, and then I’d have to hear it from you.”
“So you let Dominic raise my son.”
“I didn’t know if you were the father.”
That sentence was worse than the rest.
She looked down at her hands. “I was with Dominic too. It was a mess. I didn’t know. You were gone.”
“And the birthmark?”
“You have one in the same place.”
I touched the skin below my left ear.
I had forgotten about it. Or maybe I had stopped seeing it years ago.
The Hospital Room Had a Plastic Dinosaur on the Tray
I didn’t speak to Simone that night.
She slept in the bedroom. I stayed on the couch with the gray folder beside my leg. At 3:08 in the morning, I heard her crying into a pillow.
I kept my eyes closed.
That was the coward’s part. I knew it while I was doing it.
At six, I got dressed and went next door.
Dominic opened the door in pajama pants. He looked like he hadn’t slept.
“Eli’s at St. Vincent’s,” he said. “They took him in last night.”
“What happened?”
“His oxygen dropped.”
I stepped past him.
“What are you doing?”
“Going to the hospital.”
“He doesn’t know you.”
“He knows my name.”
Dominic blocked the doorway.
“He knows your name because Simone told him. That doesn’t make you his father.”
I looked at him.
“Am I?”
He stood there, breathing through his nose.
“Biologically, maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“She told me you could be. She said the dates were close.”
“You’ve known this for four years.”
“She asked me not to tell you.”
“And you listened.”
“She was the one who gave birth.”
“That doesn’t mean she gets to erase me.”
Dominic glanced into the apartment. Eli’s red dinosaur was still on the rug.
“No,” he said. “It doesn’t.”
He grabbed a jacket from the chair.
We drove in his old Ford. The passenger door wouldn’t close unless you lifted it and shoved it twice. Rain had started, thin and cold, making the streets shine under the traffic lights.
Neither of us spoke until we passed the courthouse.
“Why did you take him?” I asked.
Dominic kept both hands on the wheel.
“Because she handed him to me.”
“That isn’t an answer.”
“It was the answer then.”
He tapped the steering wheel with his thumb.
“I loved her. I thought if I kept him safe, she’d come back. Then months became years. She sent money. She visited. She bought him that dinosaur. She was there, just never enough.”
“Did she love him?”
“She does.”
“That isn’t what I asked.”
Dominic looked at me.
“She loves him like somebody loves a house they burned down.”
I turned toward the window.
At the hospital, Simone stood outside the pediatric cardiac unit wearing blue scrubs. Her hair was loose and flat on one side. She had a coffee in one hand and hadn’t touched it.
When she saw me, the coffee fell.
It hit the floor. The lid popped off. Brown liquid spread under the chairs.
She didn’t bend to clean it.
A nurse came through the doors and called, “Family for Elias Bell?”
Simone’s face changed.
“I’m his mother,” she said.
Then she looked at me.
I had imagined this moment for less than twelve hours, and still I had a hundred questions. Did he like pancakes? Was he afraid of dogs? Had he ever had a fever? What was his first word?
The nurse held out a clipboard.
“Father?”
Nobody answered.
The nurse looked between us.
I took the pen.
“Marcus Bell.”
My handwriting came out crooked.
Eli Opened His Eyes
They didn’t let me see him for long.
He was in a narrow bed with wires stuck to his chest and a clear tube under his nose. His skin looked yellow beneath the hospital lights. The red dinosaur sat on the tray beside him, missing its wheel.
Simone stood on one side of the bed.
Dominic stood on the other.
I stayed near the door until Eli woke.
His eyelids fluttered. He turned his head toward Simone first.
“Mommy?”
“I’m here.”
Then he saw me.
“Marcus.”
“Hi.”
He pointed at the dinosaur. “It broke.”
“Yeah. I heard.”
“Can you fix it?”
I looked at the toy.
“I can try.”
He held it out. His arm shook from the effort. I crossed the room and took it from him.
The wheel was cracked clean through. I turned it over in my hands.
“I might need tape.”
“Blue tape.”
“I’ll find blue tape.”
He nodded, satisfied.
A doctor came in and explained the surgery. I heard the words but kept looking at Eli. His eyes were open now, green-brown like Simone’s, though the left one had a darker ring around it.
The doctor asked who would sign the consent forms.
Simone looked at Dominic.
Dominic looked at me.
Nobody moved.
Then Simone said, “Marcus should.”
The doctor held out the clipboard.
My hand stopped above it.
“What happens if I sign?”
“You’re listed as the biological father,” the doctor said. “That gives you authority for today’s procedure.”
“Biological,” I said.
The doctor waited.
I signed.
The nurse came to take Eli downstairs. She pushed the bed through the doors. Eli kept hold of my finger until the last second, his grip weak and hot.
Then the doors closed.
Simone sat in a plastic chair. Dominic leaned against the wall. I stood there with the broken dinosaur in my hand.
For two hours, nobody said anything.
At 11:36, a nurse brought out a paper bag.
“His things,” she said.
Inside were the dinosaur, two socks, a red sweatshirt, and the blue toothbrush from our bathroom.
I stared at it.
Simone had packed it for him.
She must have put it there before I noticed. Before she knew I had been counting her evenings. Before the whole thing split open.
The nurse handed me the bag.
“His father can keep that.”
I looked through the glass doors at the empty hallway.
Then I put the toothbrush back in the bag.
Dominic rubbed his eyes.
Simone finally spoke.
“What are you going to do?”
I wanted to tell her I hated her. I wanted to ask if she loved me at all. I wanted to know why she had kept a picture of a newborn in a folder but never showed it to me.
Instead, I looked at the blue plastic handle.
“When he wakes up,” I said, “I’m going to fix the dinosaur.”
She nodded.
Her hand reached for mine.
I moved away before she touched me.
At 2:14 PM, the doctor came through the doors.
“He’s awake,” she said.
I stood up first.
The blue toothbrush was still in the paper bag. I picked it up and walked after her, past Simone, past Dominic, toward the room where my son was waiting for someone to come back.
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